Friday, March 29, 2013


To everyone a very blessed Easter, may the joy & hope of a risen Christ always be with you.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

At long last I can see the light

Today I was in court my DH by my side & after a huge wait in the most dismal conditions we were called in, butterflies in my stomach felt like giant eagles, palms sweating and my heart beat doing a tango. All of ten minutes later with not a question asked, we had to sign a form & it was over.
Seriously over.....

Ten years ago my DH's business went under, I got paid a salary from it and as he and I are married in community of property - I was co defendent to be sequestrated.
We had had all the unplesantries of people poking through our things claiming what they could take & not take ten years ago - cars were taken, furniture, bank accounts frozen - it was a nightmare BUT we lived through it, some days were awful some better until finally we just were used to our normal such as it was.

The only hitch in all this was the paper work was never filed (lawyers from all sides) etc so we waited & waited for our legal documents telling us we could get on with living - in september 2012 they came but we still had to make two court appearances, really we were fabaglasted but we wanted the legal ok. Today is the "official" begining of our new lives - of course that is great but we have been building up new lives for about nine years, the first year was really just survival.

I am sooo glad to have this done & we just spent time reflecting on how much we have done & how far we have come in all this, we are wiser, much more sensitive to others needs & what they may be going through & hopefully not as judgemental as we used to be. Our children have learnt huge life lessons & hopefully they will never have to face these same trials & all of them will be married with an antenuptial contract.

Still we have an amazing life, a lovely home, an awesome family & a good life. Thanks be to God because He really does never leave you and i know He does have plans for our future.

So today I am grateful & happy & to anyone going through a similar thing - it does get better I can guarantee that.
De Colores

Tuesday, March 5, 2013


Today, I am exhausted but tomorrow will be much better, I have finished my big company year end & have two more to go. 

I am going to do as much as I can & do the rest tomorrow, my days of working night & day to get finished are actually behind me - I used to be so painful about it but I have realised a few extra days really doesn't matter.

There are somethings that are so important and there are some that really are not top priority, I need to put my boundaries down & get my priorities in place. Sounds logical & practical sometimes its just not that simple.

So this year I will travel more with hubby, do less volunteering & actually take a step back. It doesn't mean I will blob or opt out just be more particular to what I say yes to. Sounds selfish & to be honest it probably is a bit but I want to grow in God & also have some "me" time. 

Starting with just taking the time to be grateful for my life and everybody in it. Last week we said goodbye to a dear friend who had battled cancer with gusto & faith & humour - she was such a blessing but it bought it back to me that we don't know how many days we have & why waste them on unimportant things.

So I hope I can look back on this year as a year that I found the balance that I need.